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Tuesday, April 12, 2011

I'm back...

I don't really want to talk about how much I weigh.

I stopped purging again. I can't do it. I tested the waters for a while to see if I could get away with doing it without ruining my voice. I always knew the answer to that one. For a while it didn't seem to matter, but it does and it did.

One of my friends just finished a masters in Vocal Performance with a full ride, and now she is going to be an Opera Colorado Young Artist. This combined with some pseudo positive things that came from a competition I was in, have kicked me into high gear again. I hope. I want to sing. Soooo much. What will it take? I know I can make it. I KNOW I can. I was born for this. And I was also born not to be fat. Its hard to juggle everything. I'm tired. I'm homesick. But I can do this.

Maybe I'll start posting again. I dunno. I struggle inside myself with everything. I think its part of life. But sometimes I drive myself crazy. I might need an outlet again?

I just want to be happy.


  1. I reinvited you. It's good to hear from you.


  2. I know how you feel. I want to be happy, too. :[

    Purging has started ruining my voice as well. I'll never be on Broadway with a shit voice.
    We'll get there, where we want to be. We will


  3. Hey, trust me, you are beautiful the way you are. Please don't beat yourself up, and Please, don't starve yourself, it really isn't worth it.

    Having what you consider to be a 'better body' won't give you happiness, I'm afraid. The only road to that is through your approach on life, your attitude, and only you can give that to yourself.

    I believe in you, and I wish you luck in your singing career.

    If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to message me. (You can click on my name to reach my blog)