Oh and by the way, I remember again that I can never be good enough or beautiful or anything I could ever possibly want to be unless I am thin. I'm a fatass. But I will not stop until I'm thin. Food is not even a desire today. I'm too tired.
I feel like my body is shutting down. I felt tipsy most of the day... except I didn't drink. Need sleep. Need to be thin. Will never be good enough until I am.