Ugh! I feel like I deserve to be fat! I ate lunch with my friend yesterday... it would have been weird not to... and it caused me to spiral out of control. Ice cream and cookies. The remains of which are sitting in front of me now. I'm pathetic.
But I'm done. No more. Fasting starts now. For real. I know I've said this a couple times, but really. I'M GONNA DO THIS!
Sorry I let everyone down :(
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I am fasting also.
ReplyDeleteRight there with you.
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Aww, I'm sorry you're feeling so rotten. Binging/fasting is a feedback loop that's hard to get out of. Maybe try tapering your intake down before fasting, and then tapering it back up to an acceptably higher number of cals that stop short of being gross (my maximum intake is 1600, daily usual intake between 1000 and 700, tapered down to 400 before fasting, fasting for no more than 3 days at a time) but which allows you to eat things you crave in small amounts.
ReplyDeleteFor instance, 1 square of dark chocolate? or 1 100 cal serving of cookies (prepackaged is nice...I have 100 cal rice-cream bars in my freezer to soothe those awful ice-cream cravings) so that you don't feel totally deprived.
Deprivation is a psychological trigger for lots of people, and leads to eating unwelcome quantities of food. Treat yourself to non-food rewards, too! whenever you have a good day, do something kind for yourself. I'm a big fan of massages, shopping sprees and tattoos, myself.
Above all else, stay optimistic and hopeful. It helps minimize the bumps in the this long, skinny road.
;)