I've been doing good on my eating the past couple days. I lost two lbs, but I won't tell you from what weight because I'm embarassed. And Kazehana, I've been staying within 1200 cals, even!
Good job me.
And I've even had some moments where I wanted to mess things up out of anxiety, but I didn't. Not because I want to be skinny, but because I am denying myself the crutch of attaching food and emotions. If I feel inadequate that won't go away by eating. And if I'm gonna eat (I had a mini binge on some dark chocolate almonds but I still stayed within calories... lots of antioxidants and good fats, right?) then I need to savor it and make it a mindfulness exercise. I was able to stop myself mid mouthful and do that today. Go me.