I don't know what happened to me. Everything has come to a screeching halt. I haven't really gained. I yo-yo between the same couple lbs, depending on what I ate. I think after monday I will restart hardcore. I just grow tired of starving starving starving and not seeing any results. I needed a break. I hate the way I look in the mirror, and that will continue until I can lose a million more lbs. I get a "wow you've lost so much weight!" comment at least twice a week, but I haven't lost enough. I'm still fat. I want to be beautiful. And desireable. I know I can never be an opera singer if I am fat. At least not the characters I am likely to be cast in (based on my voice). I know I can do this. I just have to find the strength in me to get the momentum going again. My practicing has been sucky lately too :(. At least I stopped the purging before it got out of hand though! I know I can do this. After monday! I am spending tomorrow and monday with my brother in Nashville, so after that, all will be well. I'm so ready to see the scale cooperate :)
Who's with me?