Weight Loss to Date

Saturday, June 5, 2010

I wanna wake-up, I wanna restart...

I don't know what happened to me. Everything has come to a screeching halt. I haven't really gained. I yo-yo between the same couple lbs, depending on what I ate. I think after monday I will restart hardcore. I just grow tired of starving starving starving and not seeing any results. I needed a break. I hate the way I look in the mirror, and that will continue until I can lose a million more lbs. I get a "wow you've lost so much weight!" comment at least twice a week, but I haven't lost enough. I'm still fat. I want to be beautiful. And desireable. I know I can never be an opera singer if I am fat. At least not the characters I am likely to be cast in (based on my voice). I know I can do this. I just have to find the strength in me to get the momentum going again. My practicing has been sucky lately too :(. At least I stopped the purging before it got out of hand though! I know I can do this. After monday! I am spending tomorrow and monday with my brother in Nashville, so after that, all will be well. I'm so ready to see the scale cooperate :)

Who's with me?


  1. Hunny, slow down, you're going to breakdown if you continue at this rate. Trust me, I've been there, the desperate feeling of 'this isn't happening fast enough....I need for loss.' But the truth is, it can't last, it's not sustainable.
    I hope you can find a way to stop the hardcore, because hardcore generally turns into a binge...which turns into guilt, which keeps the cycle going.

    I hope this didn't sound too preachy :S


  2. I'm totally with you...Glad you're back from your break!