I got down to 155.2. Then of course I started eating. Its like this roadblock mindswitch thing or something. So I've eaten a few normal meals. The past 2 days I didn't eat all day until dinner. Today I ate starburst, had a latte and a pumpkin muffin before class. I was soooooo tired. It was crazy. And then I decided on Noodles for dinner (Noodles and Co.... they don't have that in TN!). So it was really yummy. And then about 30 mins later I purged it. I'm pretty sure I got everything but a few tiny pieces. I can hardly ever purge that much! And then I took a laxative. So we'll see how this goes. I don't plan on eating tomorrow daytime, but tomorrow eve I will definitely be around food. Snacky foods. It will probably happen. I'm expecting to be 156 tomorrow. I'd like to get a good solid 3-4 mile run in at least once this weekend. I don't know if I can do any better than maintain for at least another week, really. Its finals...
If only I could see something below 155...
By the way, I'm pretty sure I'm getting good at the science of purging without hurting my vocal chords much. My teeth are another story. But for now I'm getting good at managing purging and singing.
Let's just be honest. Truthfully, I'm bulimic. Totally. Completely. Bulimic. If it weren't for singing I'd be in a clinic. And still fat.
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It's better not to lose your teeth, so I'm gonna let you in on some stuff: never ever never (and I mean NEVER) brush your teeth directly after purging. It seems gross, but only rinse your mouth with water (I use the sprayer hose on the kitchen sink) and maybe swish with a little mouthwash, but don't brush.
ReplyDeleteStomach acid weakens the tooth enamel and then brushing before neutralizing the acid means you're essentially brushing the top layers of your teeth away. After 2-3hrs post-purge, use a recalcifying toothpaste or mouthwash meant to help strengthen enamel.
I have yet to have a dentist realize/notice that I'm a purger, so yeah.
Take care of yourself, lady. I'm around if you need me.