Weight Loss to Date

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

I am on my period. Ugh.

Plan for tomorrow is the leftovers in my fridge... and I need to go to the store and buy some apples and celery. So I will do that too.

And I'm working out with my friend first thing.

Tell me why it is that some people are so naturally beautiful? And why i can't be? Sometimes I feel like I've overcome so freaking many things in my life, worked so hard... and still I get shafted. Obviously this is also coming from the fears I have about school. I'm pretty sure I'm not gonna get in to the places I want to go. I may be getting into a school for Music Ed, but its complicated because i really wanted to go for performance.

It just makes me angry seeing pictures of all my friends on facebook with these lovely lives... and they are beautiful. I don't want to be the fat girl. And yet somehow I keep being the fat girl :(

I have the power and control to make my dreams happen. I just have to do it.


  1. you're totally right- its so unfair that some people get to be so naturall thin and gorgeous! And everyone says, "well some people are better in some ways and others are better in different ways" but i'm not better in ANY way! its a travesty!

  2. you do have the power! it's all in your control :)

    Stay strong!