Last night I went for a run for a full hour. Talk about an anti depressant. I felt so much better. And then I came home and ate leftovers. Not the best move after all the crap I've been eating, but I wanted to start fresh today, and I don't purge, and the only way to get rid of it was to eat it or throw it away, which I could bear to do (waste of money). So I ate it, enjoyed it and now it gone.

The bad part was that I woke up sick from it. My stomach hurt so bad this morning. It still hurts but its better. My friends want me to go out to eat with them tonight. My plan is to only drink diet coke... but if I do relent, just a house salad and maybe a tiny bit of bread. I would like to pretend I'm gonna be strong enough to say no, but I don't know if I will be. Today is at least an improvement...

Wish me luck! Thanks for all the comments lately. Its really been helping considering all the turmoil I'm in as I wait for grad schools to get back to me. Love you girls.