Sorry I have been sucking at commenting, dears. Life is very; busy, at least until after Tuesday. Then I can breathe. I am sure that I have gained a million pounds this week, although my clothes don't seem to be telling it yet. Gotta reign it in. I want to lose so so so bad...

Still pretty heartbroken about 2 rejections within 20 minutes of each other. I had an unexpected meltdown today, and luckily one of my friends came off the elevator at the exact moment when I started. She comforted me and I cried most of it out... Still sad. But I am a fighter and the most determined person EVER when I decide something is worthwhile.

I'm excited about going to school for Music Ed, but a part of me wishes that if I'm not cut out to be a performer, that I would stop wanting it. I don't know what you girls believe... but I know that God has a plan, as trite and cliche and hard to believe as it is. I know that the positive things I have to look forward to didn't come because I necessarily made them happen. So along with that I hold with faith and hope that I WILL get a degree in Vocal Performance, even if the department at Colorado doesn't know it just yet. I can show them.

I will be successful. At weight loss. At teaching. At singing. You'll see.