Here's what's up. Basically, I'm probably a soubrette (voice type) right now. Which means I have to lose weight if I'm ever going to be a believable one because they are adorable and cute. I'm such a fat ass... I know I have gained since CO, but after this trip is over, I will lose weight and learn new rep. Period. That's how it has to be because I MUST succeed at this. Just one more full day. And then I can really do this.

I really want this so so so so bad. Have I ever mentioned that? I really do believe I have issues with my thyroid. But I can't do anything about it because I don't have insurance. So suck for me. Nothing a little starving can't cure for now.

I'm gonna do this. Or fail at life forever.