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Friday, March 19, 2010

Dear Self,

You are so fucking fat, disgusting and pathetic, you should never let another morsel pass your lips.

Sincerely,

Your disgustingly fat self.


I saw pictures of myself. I'm so disgusting. I ate ice cream today. Also disgusting. Why do I always make bad choices right after I see success??? I don't get it. I wish I could purge, but it would probably make me feel even worse. I'm glad I have at least self control for that!

I've gotta do this whole heartedly. Glad I have some pics OF MYSELF to use as reverse thinspo. Ugh.

4 comments:

  1. oh no- don't be so hard on yourself love! I know it can be really tough- when my husbands family was here, we took pictures and I didnt realize how far I still have to go. it doesnt help that I was standing so close to teeny little sister in law that weighs 110 pounds- pregnant! ugh. it made me hate myself even more, if thats possible!


    but maybe if we love ourselves it will make us feel like we deserve to be skinny, and we'll treat ourselves better!

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  2. I agree with Becca...It's so very difficult for us to be positive or gentle with ourselves when we see so much reason to fuel our self-hate when we look in the mirror. Try to think of how well you've done, and try to imagine how fucking AWESOME you will look and feel when you have been strong enough to reach your goal...You WILL be thin! We will all be thin. You have to remember that, even when it's hard. You can do it. <3
    P.D.

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  3. i'm with ya right now. i feel the same way. i feel like pounding my inner child to shit bcuz of my weaknesses. but you know what, i think the positives help me move along towards my ultimate goal much faster. when i sit and think shitty stuff about myself, it kinda stalls out my progress. if that makes sense. i've noticed that when i'm proud of my accomplishments and look at the good, instead of the draw backs then i do much better being confident and in control of my eating.

    keep up the good work and thank you for all the awesome comments you've left on my page. it really helps me to know someone is reading my stupid boring ass shit. anywho, thanks! and stay positive!

    (i need to follow my own advice don't i? ::wink::)

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  4. Thus is the curse of perfectionism. Stay strong, Z. We are all behind you.

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