Welp, the past 28 hours have basically been a binge fest... and it was worth it because I sang well. This night and this performance was so incredible-- everything I wanted it to be. I just need to be much much much thinner now so that I can play roles like Zerlina and Susanna and be taken seriously.
I think I'm gonna *try* to fast for the next 4 days and break my fast on Tuesday night at the cast party. I could be well into the 160s by then if I stick to it. And then I will eat whatever I want at the cast party... and then I will go back to restriction. I can do this. All I have to think about is who I want to be as a performer!
I'm gonna do this. Zerlina, here I come!